So it's just beginning to set in that I'm going to Africa and not just sometime, but next week. I am mentally prepared but not practically prepared. I've got a lot of shopping and packing to do. My last round of shots is tomorrow so my arm will be sore again, hopefully for the last time in a while.
Every once in a while my job rears up and makes like it's going to swallow me whole. It never actually does -- I have safeguards in place -- but it makes threats every so often. My Outlook calendar is so crammed full there's no blank space. This initially freaked me out but now I've detached from it somewhat and have been able to find the humor and ridiculousness in it all.
A lot's getting done. That's good right? Gotta be productive. Get stuff done. That's our mantra over here in the US of A. A good person gets stuff done.
Well, I think the paradigm's about to shift a bit and the prospect of encountering a different take on life sounds pretty good to me. Lately I've been feeling like my job's had its hooks in me. The best way to describe it is to say I'm really in it right now. In deep. It's job all day, then dinner and passing out. Wake up, repeat. And that's all right for a time. I'm actually enjoying it in a certain way -- this is not negative over the short term but over the long term it would not be all right anymore.
Tonight at calligraphy I enjoyed a good break from it all. I mentally went offline and spent an evening writing beautiful characters with friends. Turned out a nice gyousho (semi-cursive) piece. After class a few of us went to dinner at Soba-Koh and when my classmate mentioned some of the things that were troubling him our teacher started advocating the Zen theme of detachment. "Detachment," I thought. "That sounds good right about now." Since I'm in it and would rather not be so in it, yes, detachment seems a bit of all right.
I'm about to get really detached. I like the idea. I have no idea what to expect and somehow that makes me feel comfortable. A new experience. I wonder what philosophies and views on living I'll encounter in Ghana.
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